What I didn’t mention yesterday, was my physical state at university. Though I’ve felt more active, my anxious nervous system wouldn’t let me forget that I can’t rush into overdrive. As soon as I stepped out onto campus, my heart raced and I began shaking. I knew I wanted to be there, so went to the Students’ Union shop to get a warm drink, and found myself a small, warm computer room to huddle in. Whilst I was very happy to be there, enjoyed the air and the trees of campus, and was proud of myself for even going (with a bag of work with me to boot) the adrenalin kept me shaking for the full three hours I stayed.
Nevertheless, I’m back again today, a little less wobbly, a little less shaky, and pleased with myself and my body because of it.